After all...

After all the ups, no downs,
I got nothing more than frowns.

After all those moments so high,
I can do nothing, but only shy.

It's the rule of the sky and ground,
What goes around, comes around.

I tried so hard to change my shade,
But it could only grow and fade.

Though these regrets add fire to the fuel,
What could I do? Honesty is my rule.